THE STATE OF MIND

The end of the year.   Because of this, I decided to write a few words here in my "garden of thoughts" as well. The year 2025 was a year marked by change for me. But not only that. It was an interesting year in terms of reflection. For several years now, I have had plans for each coming year. Sometimes they form a coherent whole; other times, they are a flash of needs which, if not fully realized, can lead to a sense of defeat and failure. And that is exactly why I am writing this post. Yesterday, I heard an interesting phrase: that we set this boundary point from which we begin our transformation (or, more precisely, plan our transformation) because we feel a need to ritualize the moment of transition. "Starting Monday, I will..." "Starting with the new year, I will..." "Starting next month, I will..." I don’t judge whether the ritual of transition is good, bad, necessary, or not. It is likely whatever it needs to be for each of us individually....

We make them every day. Consciously or subconsciously. Perhaps unconsciously. Reflexively and mechanically. They influence the reality taking shape around us. Decisions. When writing a few days ago about consequences, I knew that the idea I wanted to capture would not be fully expressed if I only wrote about consequences. To do so, I need to look at what comes at the very beginning, many moments before the consequence. Therefore, a decision. What is a decision? I tend to think that it is one of the most beautiful manifestations of free will, although it is probably debatable whether we are truly free. External factors have a significant impact on our existence, including the environment in which we are raised. Perhaps, then, a manifestation of free will will be a decision that is completely different from what our environment expects of us. Manifesting existence by adopting a nonconformist stance. The stance of active nonconformity has always been tempting for me. It's not easy, th...

  The theme of today’s reflections will be consequences. Consequences as the result of decisions made. Every day, every second of our lives, we make decisions. Some we make consciously, others not. Sometimes perhaps automatically, driven by habit. "Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards," as Kierkegaard used to say. Consequently, we can only notice the effects of our decisions from the perspective of passing time. Sometimes I encounter an attitude of negation toward results. Though perhaps more fitting words would be "rejection" and "denial." When the outcome of a decision is not what we wished for, we are capable of rejecting it and refusing to come to terms with the situation. To me, acceptance is the key. To live in harmony with ourselves, we need balance to experience happiness. When we negate the reality surrounding us, disharmony occurs. A disturbance—one that prevents us from feeling happy. I will write one more thing. ...

  The 90s in metal music were interesting. What was born in the 70s and matured in the 80s exploded with all its might precisely in the 90s. This is my own opinion, which every reader of these words has the right to disagree with. Since my musical maturation occurred at the end of the 90s, unfortunately, I didn't "catch" all those epoch-making musical moments. At least not all of them. Somewhere in the late 80s, total frenzy for music under the sign of the horned one took hold in Scandinavia. Bands were popping up faster than mushrooms after the rain. On the wave of this craze, the band Treblinka was formed, which initially touched upon the realms of black and death metal with its work. The band changed its name to Tiamat . In 1992, they released the album entitled Clouds , which heralded changes. The band began its journey toward finding its own path. Already here, acoustic insertions appear (see the introduction to "In a Dream"), keyboard landscapes ("A ...